Thursday, February 03, 2011
woahs! its been almost a year that i hadnt been blogging.
its just boring during new year. other than gambling, its still catching up of relatives.
just finished dinner. i guess i had gained a few kg over these few days. zzz
guess i had to go running in order to get those fats away from me asap.
had been thinking through. what should i do.
go ahead or give up.
hard decision to make.
but the reaction i received was to ask me give up.
and when we went out the other time, what i felt is truly happiness.
so, what is the relationship between us? i really ponders.
its so tiring just wondering what is he thinking.
maybe he doesnt even care. maybe he has someone else.
maybe he just treat me as a fellow colleage/friend.
how i wish he could just tell me something to get rid of all these maybes.
GOD! Help me out here, will ya?
IF! really there is something he feels for me, will he say anything?
or will he just shuddup and end up in Shenzhen for the next 3-5 yrs?
GOSH! don wish to think about all these.
i thought that i had decided not to tell him anything about how i feel.
but as times goes by, i feel like telling him everything just to relieve myself and also giving myself a chance.
but im afraid things might get awkward between us. zz
alright, so if he still remember that i still wanna go cycling for the weekend before he flys off.
then i shall tell him. hmm..alright maybe...2 chances. =.=
1 is we go cycling. other 1 is we go for our ice cream treat.
see if he remembers. if not, i guess theres nth much i could do if he don even remember that i wanna go cycling or have ice cream.
this is so frustrating. ><
bring me smile.7:40 PM
simple minded.