Monday, September 22, 2008
i am sick.
not trying to be emotional here.
but just want to say out.
one. haven been updating my blog.
two. i need to get it off my chest before i explode.
three. i am feeling unwell. but who knows?
four. i am still getting used to my new bed. 我会认床. (cant sleep well, thanks to it.)
Fyp. its starting.
Sam wants to change leader.
and guess what. no 1 wants to be the leader.
but i understand why she doesnt wants to be.
and things started to annoy me. is it?
maybe alittle. or not. whatever it is.
i must survive through this semester!! no matter what. jia you!
what have i been doing?
packing my stuffs in my room. moving around the computer table.
oh yar. i got a computer table in my small little room.
like finally. its small and fits into the small corner of my room. =))
and i moved my bed over to my bro's house.
moving over there around Oct. and i miss my bed.
sleeping on a new mattress. very hard. =(
and i felt so so unwell. slight fever still have to move my things in my room.
which i packed nicely not long ago. argh!
but it looks so much like a room now.
and i got back my phone. not me though.
it was my mum who helped me get it back.
they took my SCREEN PROTECTOR!
it costs me 10 bucks!!!!! they just took it away!
damn it. =((
things haven been going my way lately.
just have to tolerate. cause things will get better dont they?
have been stressed lately. people around me. things happening to me.
gosh. can someone just entertain me so that i could not think about those stuffs?
terrible headache now. flip off!
bring me smile.3:27 PM
Friday, September 05, 2008
feeling what im not supposed to be.
maybe you have guessed it.
emo.
the things way had been pushed me to the corner of feeling that way.
maybe its my fault that things had gone this way.
nobody wants it.
i swear.
but is all somethings' fault which is called "accident".
Mr Accident had made me felt terrible.
it made me feel that the world is soon going to topple down.
cause it always seems that history is going to repeat itself.
flashbacks.
i just couldnt put it down.
whenever i thought that i could overcome it.
things would happen to me.
am i just too stupid to overcome it?
stupidity makes me sad.
not going to say what happened.
nor how am i feeling.
i am too unpredictable.
too phony.
conclusion.
self-blame.
i had one thought.
or maybe a few?
i will never be compared to those people.
im just a small part of your life.
maybe it doesnt matter bahs.
i guess.
whatever it is.
im losing hope.
thats all.
cause i dont want to go through what i had been through.
its too much to take once again.
and i realize something.
i had no life.
sad. pathetic.
right?
its like a smack on the face that i realize that.
maybe im back to my old days.
getting ready to be independent again. =)
what can i say about it?
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had no idea what to say.
my mind is in a whirl.
ups and downs.
left and right.
everywhere.
afraid to lose = losing of hope
which in the ends become a world filled with darkness.
byes.
bring me smile.12:30 PM
Thursday, September 04, 2008
first day of school. mostly classmates i knew.shall update since i have some time. =) went to 大公主 chalet to celebrate.
the main character. =)) Happy Birthday Gurl.
the whole group photo. =))
Our gang photo. =)))
surprisingly, everyone smile nicely in this photo. keke.
it was quite fun.i had some "presents" even im not the main character. had 3 blueblacks on my knee.
because had pillow fight with the princesses between the king and 四公主.
lols. that makes up our night. and i couldnt sleep at all.
due to the music that they made. =(
the next day we went to watched WALL.E. so touching!! =))
so nice. wanted to watch wedding daze. but dont have. sads.
bring me smile.12:19 PM
the main character. =)) Happy Birthday Gurl.
the whole group photo. =))
Our gang photo. =)))
simple minded.