' oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight. '
addicted to 方大同 song.
its so nice to just listen to his song, and relax.
been difficult to sleep recently, or have good rest.
keep having weird dreams then spasmicly woke up.
and finally, tmr i will have a day off!! ((:
happys! and i could rest till i shiok then go meet the rest at Vivo tmr.
going to have a farewell party for Tim. (:
and hope everything goes well for him. he should know what i mean.
GOOD LUCK TIM!! and dont brood over it so much ya? hees.

i spent over 60 bucks for presents for 17 students. )):
broke right now. but the kids seems happy. (:

aihs. heard more and more stories.
thought it would distract me more. but its like rubbing me off.
making me depressed too. lols.
but that wont do!!
i must get over it! i can do it! hehe!

my decision has been made.
decided to just let it go.
i was lucky that i was not fallen that deep in that pit.
was glad that i still could pull myself out before i get deeper.
*breathes out*
tells myself that i am going to make it.
its going to be fine. i had been alone for years.
and i am still alive and kicking. so be grateful that i am still alive. (:
whatever it is, i am not going to have one-sided love anymore.
sick of it. ): and i am not going to be bother by it.

trying to find friends to worry about. haas.
apparently there are quite a few.
gotta pray for few of them.
hope that the one in camp, could feel much better. dont brood over being outcast in there.
haas. =P
and the one having family matter, dont emo so much. alrights?
last, the one having relationship prob, hope that she would reply u asap. ((:
im here praying for u guys.

had been feeling weird.
last talk to her. was like feeling shes fed up with something.
but whatever it is. shes not going to talk, im not going to ask.

memories filled. be it good or bad. they are still your precious memories.

finally back at home!
was having a headache this morning when i woke up.
maybe because i slept too late last night.
reading twilight! (:
i spent 2 or 3 days reading first book for twilight the second time!
addicted to it. especially the first book!
there are moments when i keep smiling/laughing on my own while reading it.
hope people around me during that time wont think i am crazy.
now i think i going to skip book 2. New Moon.
cause its just about Jacob and Bella. ): dont like Jacob. =P
Book 3. Eclipse. Edward and Bella getting engaged! woohs~

alright. back to main point.
went down to sports complex to take my bow down to SCC.
forgotten all about my phone. i left it outside on the floor outside the cage.
luckily nic brought it back to me. thanks alot.
i am already depressed losing things during Sep month.
if i lost one more thing, i will go crazy. really

slowly spend my time doing up the nocking point.
but in the end it was done by winnie. Thanks! (:
letting my bow stretch. slowly.
arrows cant make it. only 2 workable arrows left now.
needa fletch back. otherwise i cant shoot. argh!

went to shoot for awhile. nocking point came off.
arrows went down to 3. then one more arrow nock came off.
fed up. went back to the room to set down. and rest.
each time the door opened, i will raise my head and look.
no idea why. but i just had this reaction. i think i raised up 10 times?
it was getting more tiring. and more people were getting back.
i cant sleep at all. and my headache is killing me. ):

then went back to sch. to put down the bows.
something disappoints. S=
head back to meet my family at bedok south to eat for dinner.
i took about 5 -10 mins to finish up my dinner.
no idea if i was hungry or what. lols.
then went to do grocery shopping with my mum.
carried the basket. damn heavy.
then went back home.
finally could eat med for my headache.
now i should go rest. (:
byes.

Enjoy 60 secs of happiness instead of spending 1 minute getting angry over things. (:

was back home quite late today.
suppose to get off at 6. but in the end, i gotta go off at 6.45pm.
tmr i am getting off early. i think around 5 plus.
great!!

no ones home today.
family visiting my cousin in hospital after her operation.
dint get a chance to visit her. ):
get well soon, Nana

i was quite depressed these few days.
then went on to facebook. saw a few videos on Charmaine's FB
saw a clip.



i cried so much. it is damn saddening to see that there is this kind of life.
i know that there is. but i dint witness it or seen a video like that.
found that i should really cherish what i had right now.
not saying what i dont have. but instead say what i have right now.
it would be much better. (:
cherish life.
alright. now should show something more happy. much more cute.



It is impossible to love and be wise.

what should i say?
i am losing my mind.
first i lost my phone. next i lost my Ezlink card.
which i just top up 20 bucks!
and i think i am losing my mind next.

feeling very absent minded these few days.
or should i say worse than normal times.
and i already felt frustrated.
worse of all, my students just dont listen to me.
i know what i will hear.
"kids marh, take it easy"
but sometimes its just not easy.
they listen to other teacher but not me.
cause they are not scared of me.
what should i do??
i was on the verge of tearing this afternoon.
but still, i see no point of tearing.

so i am just feeling down.
want to find someone to talk to.
but i cant find anyone.
god. whomever may it be.
just keep me safe. dont make me lose my mind.
thank you. (:

Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus when the limo breaks down.

P.S. i really wanna find that someone.

sunday.
home alone.
dint really wanna go out.
jio-ed to dbl 0 tonight. but stomach not feeling well.
so gotta skip this time.

theres no work tmr. felt free.
so feel like going out somewhere. maybe alone?
BUT! its a public holiday. sure many people!
so i guess forget it.
im just plain lazy.

once again, i thought about my own life.
always thinking and frustrating what i want to do in the future.
although i am holding a job that last me until Dec.
it is either i would extend my job contract with my boss or i find another job related to my dip. or i am going to study.
but after the talk i had last night, really should put studies behind for awhile.
need to plan what i want to study and save up the money for studies on my own.
so i had 2 choices right now.
continue my work as a student care teacher or find a logistics related job.
which i think dont quite suit a slow person like me. ):
now i find my dip is useless for me. cant stand my life.
but life gotta move on. so when i study in 3 yrs time, i am gonna put my best effort in it.
not going to regret it again.

actually i am quite contented with my life right now.
people around me are happy. and they are healthy and fine!
but i just quite empty.
was told that someone is cycling slowly and swimming slowly towards me.
lols! but i guess that person might die during those obstacles.
forget this part of my life. dont want to care about it.
just thinking wont help any of me. it would only depresses me.
so LET GO, ANGELYNN! ((:
smile alrights?
lets move on!! (:
JIA YOU!

When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we took so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened up for us.

P.s. i love that quote. ((:

a saturday, not training but i still went to SCC.
was talking in the room the whole afternoon with winnie.
today the coach stayed until quite late.
then i went to eat a bun, but i vomited it out in the end.
wasted 70cents! ):
so it was quite late when we went back to the sch to put winnie's bow.
Nic was with us too. lols
boon and i were laughing all the way back to the sports complex.
just got this laughing genes activated.
and i think Nic got fed up with me and boon. LOL

we walked to woodlands and i ate Botak Jones for the first time.
Cajun Chicken. with spicy fries and potato salad.
i got "chicken" effect. cant digest the food.
while winnie and minnie had "cow" effect. lols.
then we walked back to woodlands.
also to digest the food we ate. it was quite fast.
then we went around walk walk, then go civic centre the MAC there sit until 11.20pm
chiong for the last bus. winnie chased it for me. LOL
i cant run. =S
its been long since i had took the last bus home. thought about alot of past.
flashbacks. memories. its just all in the head.

back at home right now. trying to wait my stomach to digest the food.
then i could sleep well. (:
thats all for today. CIAOS.

Love is Magic. Because it makes me love both your good and your bad. (:

right now, i am at home. doing up a birthday card. (:
haas! its a simple 1, cause i am lacking of time to do a pretty one. so sorry!! ):

had been spending my days with my sec gangs.
out at St. James. its counted as my fav. spot right now.
its not as bad as zouk. i dont like zouk.
not the people, not the place. ):
recently i just had the urge to drink.
but twice i went to drink to make myself drunk. i dont get drunk. =S
see when is the next time that i will go and get myself real drunk. (:

i am BROKE! ):
waiting for my pay to come when its only half way past Sep!
i am also waiting for my boss to hire another person to help me out.
i am already losing my voice due to shouting at them.
im the only english and maths teacher when my boss is not around.
so stress! ):
cause they cant be bothered with me. SAD
and they keep bullying me! grr!
they gave me a new name. Teacher Bear Bear.
should i be happy about it? lol.
but they are just cute. ((:
treated them to ice pop today. they look so happy!!
and we had a competition who eat the ice pop faster.
sadly i am the 6th. lols!

anyways, tmr going down to SCC, but not shooting.
cause my stomach still doesnt feel that well. ):
alright. ciaos!

When I see you smile and know that it is not for me, that is when I will miss you the most

today is Saturday. a training day for the archers.
well, for a leisure shooter like me went down to shoot as well.
it seems that i am disturbing them training. haa
couldn't laugh it out.
sometimes i could not help but to feel that i am the odd one out.
despite some fights between me and some juniors.
maybe, the gap would be there as i only spent half of Saturday with them.
its natural to feel this way, i thought to myself.
persuading that this is just temporary. and it might or might not continue to be.
not wanting to think too much about it anymore.
cause it will just demoralized me further.

my shooting today was worse than the first time that I used Yi Jing 32 pound bow in indoors.
i shoot terribly.
First, i could not activate my back muscle to pull, which cause me to tire much sooner.
Second, my right elbow dropped as soon as i released.
Third, i cant seem to concentrate thus missing 1 arrows.
it was back to the mood when i cant shoot well 2 years ago.
terribly, i lost the confidence to continue, but i know i cant run away like i did before.
i had to face it. i will bring back my confidence to shoot the next next Sat.
had to celebrate Ji Yuan birthday next Sat. ((:
something to look forward to. as he himself is so excited about it.

went to attend a pri sch friend 21st birthday party. Yee Ling's birthday.
many people. really. people who don't know me and i don't know them. haas.
i was sooooo bored that i started to mass sms. but sadly, none of them were free to entertain me.
then i tried to entertain myself, walking around the blocks, cause i can't stay under the block.
it is a "sauna", I'm sweating, and my face is red. my friend said that i was drunk.
thanks man!
then people who attend the party, had this
i am still wearing it. haas. ((:
dad fetched me home, and here am i, blogging away.

enough of today matters.
i needa stop thinking for all the things. clear my mind.
think of nothing. otherwise, i would feel that my mind would explode.

To be your friend was all i wanted. To be your lover was all I ever dreamed.

Sad News: Each Sat in Sep i got a friend who have their birthdays.
and i lost my handphone. )):

Good News: this week is coming to an end.

had been trying myself to take it easy when i found out that my handphone is lost.
since its lost, what can i do about it. shrug it off.

got the riser from Lirong. ((:
real cool! and damn excited to shoot.
tmr its friday! 2 more days.

felt so tired. had been going out these few days non-stop.
only back at home for dinner tonight.
tmr might be meeting friend for dinner before going to my bro house.

Better to have loved and lost, than to have not loved at all.

today, amazingly i woke up at 9 plus.
couldn't sleep back but i am so tired.
fine. so got up, went to surf net. and saw that Charps posted quite a few song videos.
went to listen, and felt that it was quite nice. ((:

i shall just put down the lyrics.
First is Colbie Caillat - Falling for You.

don't know but I think I maybe Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I Know you better

I am trying Not to tell you
But I want to I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you I'm fallin' for you

As I'm standing here And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you And we start to dance
All around us I see nobody
Here in silence It's just you and me

I'm trying Not to tell you
But I want to I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you I've been waiting all my life and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you I'm fallin' for you

Oh I just can't take it
My heart is racing The emotions keep spinning out

I've been spending all my time Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you I've been waiting all my life and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you I'm fallin' for you
I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you (x2)

I'm fallin' for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I'm fallin' for you


The second song is OwlCity- Fireflies

You Would Not Believe Your Eyes
If Ten Million Fireflies
Light Up The World As I Fell Asleep
Cause They Fill The Open Air
And Leave Teardrops Everywhere
You'd Think me Rude
But I Wouuld Just Stand And stare
I'd Like To make Myself Believe That Planet earth Turns Slowly
It's Hard To Say That I'd Rather Stay Awake When I'm Asleep
Cause Everything Is Never As It Seems

Cause I'd Get A Thousand Hugs
From Ten Thousand Lightning Bugs
As They Tried To Teach Me How To Dance
A Foxtrot Above My head
A Sockhop Beneath My Bed
A Disco Ball Is Just hanging By A thread
I'd Like To make Myself Believe That Planet earth Turns Slowly
It's Hard To Say That I'd Rather Stay Awake When I'm Asleep
Cause Everything Is Never As It Seems
When I Fall Asleep
Leave My Door Open Just A crack
Please Take Me Away From Here
Cause I Feel Like Such An Insomniac
Please Take Me Away From Here
Why Do I Tire Of Counting Sheep
Please Take Me Away From Here
When I'm far Too Tired To Fall Asleep
To Ten Million Fireflies
I'm Weird Cause I Hate Goodbyes
I Got Misty Eyes As They Said Farewell
But I'll Know Where Several Are
If My Dreams Get Real Bizzare
Cause I Saved A Few And I Keep Them In A Jar
I'd Like To make Myself Believe That Planet earth Turns Slowly
It's Hard To Say That I'd Rather Stay Awake When I'm Asleep
Cause Everything Is Never As It Seems
When I Fall Asleep
I'd Like To make Myself Believe That Planet earth Turns Slowly
It's Hard To Say That I'd Rather Stay Awake When I'm Asleep
Cause Everything Is Never As It Seems
When I Fall Asleep
I'd Like To make Myself Believe That Planet earth Turns Slowly
It's Hard To Say I'd Rather Stay Awake When I'm Asleep
Because My Dreams Are Bursting At The Seams

these songs are not bad.
ahs. im bored. bye!

If I had a flower for everytime I thought of you, I could walk in my garden forever.

You come to love not by finding the perfect person but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

simple minded.
sensitive.
blur.
a happy person now.
bites people. =P
Fav. Quote.
sMiLe! :))
last but not least.
remember 15 July.

a person whom love me.

learn to play piano.

have a stable and more income.

buy a laptop for my mum.

have a desktop together with a TV.

have a new closet.

a more tanned ME. :))

have each different kind of perfume.

grow my hair longer.

a comfy heels that dont cut me.

different kind of design for watches.

SLIM DOWN!!

more crazy that present me.

be able to survive with metal bow.

♥Charmaine
♥Chris(JiaWei)
♥Chu Yun
♥Irvin
♥Joey
♥Penny
♥Qiu Tin
♥Vennon
♥Yasmin
♥Yen Leng


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