Friday, February 18, 2011
had a night in zouk with him.
with the rest of our colleagues.
was drinking. rather making him drink.
make him drink neat de. then pour mixer for him again.
woots. and 2 flaming drinks.
KO. as expected.
he was damn high. whatever we asked him to do, he will.
but he just wouldnt let us go back home. ==
we gotta work. reach office like 8.30am
not like him, got half day leave and able to go office whatever time he likes.
left there at 2 plus. zz
he just KO in the cab. and puked.
lucky theres plastic bag from cab uncle. (:
but today i asked him, if he remember what happened last night.
he say not so sure. =/
aihs.
bring me smile.12:34 AM
Sunday, February 13, 2011
alright!!
gave all my might. and i got what i predicted previously.
yes. he knew that i liked him. but he just kept mum about it.
he said that if he was me, he will keep mum about it since he knew tt nothing is going to happen.
yeah. maybe true. but he said. be friends for the time being.
since we still do not know each other that well.
din wanna think about it too much. all i know that he knows how i feel.
and im not on pretense anymore. which makes me feel great. without to keep anything from him.
because at same time, he doesnt wanna be in a relationship yet. which i knew earlier.
so right now, i felt depressed. but also felt relaxed.
because at least i knew what hes thinking. i dont have to crack my brain to think about what hes thinking. (:
both good news and bad news. HA! what a great Vday present i had.
bring me smile.6:26 PM
Thursday, February 10, 2011
dint know that someone would be still looking at my blog. ==
aihs. but u know anyway. HA! doesnt matter.
im here just to fa xie. cause i dont think i could continue jogging with my leg cramp every other min i jog.
i think i should just cut off all contacts till he leave.
i really cannot tolerate myself talking to a wall anymore.
guess i should really move on.
if he have feelings for me, i should have felt it.
but i feel nothing up till now.
i felt so stupid. so dumb. making myself fall into such a pit.
GOD! save me all these trouble could u?!
i had ENOUGH! of all these shitty stuffs.
im going to break down soon with all these shits and the stress in office.
every time my boss went pass, i would worry so much that i made a mistake again.
its not really feeling very nice.
argh!!!!!!!!
bring me smile.9:46 PM
Thursday, February 03, 2011
woahs! its been almost a year that i hadnt been blogging.
its just boring during new year. other than gambling, its still catching up of relatives.
just finished dinner. i guess i had gained a few kg over these few days. zzz
guess i had to go running in order to get those fats away from me asap.
had been thinking through. what should i do.
go ahead or give up.
hard decision to make.
but the reaction i received was to ask me give up.
and when we went out the other time, what i felt is truly happiness.
so, what is the relationship between us? i really ponders.
its so tiring just wondering what is he thinking.
maybe he doesnt even care. maybe he has someone else.
maybe he just treat me as a fellow colleage/friend.
how i wish he could just tell me something to get rid of all these maybes.
GOD! Help me out here, will ya?
IF! really there is something he feels for me, will he say anything?
or will he just shuddup and end up in Shenzhen for the next 3-5 yrs?
GOSH! don wish to think about all these.
i thought that i had decided not to tell him anything about how i feel.
but as times goes by, i feel like telling him everything just to relieve myself and also giving myself a chance.
but im afraid things might get awkward between us. zz
alright, so if he still remember that i still wanna go cycling for the weekend before he flys off.
then i shall tell him. hmm..alright maybe...2 chances. =.=
1 is we go cycling. other 1 is we go for our ice cream treat.
see if he remembers. if not, i guess theres nth much i could do if he don even remember that i wanna go cycling or have ice cream.
this is so frustrating. ><
bring me smile.7:40 PM
simple minded.