feeling what im not supposed to be.
maybe you have guessed it.
emo.
the things way had been pushed me to the corner of feeling that way.
maybe its my fault that things had gone this way.
nobody wants it.
i swear.
but is all somethings' fault which is called "accident".
Mr Accident had made me felt terrible.
it made me feel that the world is soon going to topple down.
cause it always seems that history is going to repeat itself.
flashbacks.
i just couldnt put it down.
whenever i thought that i could overcome it.
things would happen to me.
am i just too stupid to overcome it?
stupidity makes me sad.
not going to say what happened.
nor how am i feeling.
i am too unpredictable.
too phony.
conclusion.
self-blame.

i had one thought.
or maybe a few?
i will never be compared to those people.
im just a small part of your life.
maybe it doesnt matter bahs.
i guess.
whatever it is.
im losing hope.
thats all.
cause i dont want to go through what i had been through.
its too much to take once again.

and i realize something.
i had no life.
sad. pathetic.
right?
its like a smack on the face that i realize that.
maybe im back to my old days.
getting ready to be independent again. =)

what can i say about it?
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had no idea what to say.
my mind is in a whirl.
ups and downs.
left and right.
everywhere.
afraid to lose = losing of hope
which in the ends become a world filled with darkness.

byes.

bring me smile.12:30 PM