its been a long day. thats what i felt. felt dreadful as the days passed on. is either the work is too routine or i had been feeling worn out by this job. something is going through my head. and yet i had been telling myself not to bother about it. there it goes. contradicting in my sub-conscious mind. which results in my migraine.
it turns out more exhausting when there is no one by your side. when everyone has their each and own place to go to. and me left alone. no where to go. no one to turn to. this is what happens. just have to get through with this. cause it is always happening. gotta get used to it. otherwise, i am the one who always ends up hurting my own feelings by myself. im a stubborn girl. things dont go through me unless i experienced it. haa 2 more months to a new year! tell myself that this year i had done well! ((: by not being emo for the whole damn year. hee! Angelynn, you're independent alright! you are able to stand up by yourself!! without anyone's help. I can do it!!
Hopeless; Finding a ray of light.
bring me smile.12:11 AM
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
today my students were dancing nobody by wonder girls. haa! so cute. they anyhow dance. but looks so cute. its only when the chorus they know how to dance. LOL Enjoy. :D
bring me smile.8:48 PM
Monday, October 12, 2009
finally, i exploded. released off all those accumulated stress.
got this comic strip done. HAA! i just got nothing to do. and nothing much to update. so. yeah. haas.
bring me smile.11:11 PM
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
had been stressed over students in the centre. super stressed. and everyone thought the work is easy. why is that so? duper unhappy now. i had low blood pressure. haa! keep getting giddy spells and headaches nowadays. plus no voice due to shouting. wish i would go mute. tada!~ a teacher with no voice. great!
went to cut my fringe. people says it looks okay. i thought i looked toot for a moment. S= nevermind it. saw this clip. brings my hope back to what i am suppose to do. had to get up from where i fell down. ((:
Keep it up, Angelynn!! ((:
bring me smile.9:30 PM
Saturday, October 03, 2009
these few days i had been getting more and more depressed. all my energy are gone. everything clouds in my head. someone out there, cheer me up will you?
im really exploding soon. ): i want to gaze at the stars. but its too hazy. i want to go to the beach. no 1 wants. god! should i do everything alone??
alone. this is a word that i dont like. get this word out of my life!
bring me smile.10:34 PM
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
' oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight. ' addicted to 方大同 song. its so nice to just listen to his song, and relax. been difficult to sleep recently, or have good rest. keep having weird dreams then spasmicly woke up. and finally, tmr i will have a day off!! ((: happys! and i could rest till i shiok then go meet the rest at Vivo tmr. going to have a farewell party for Tim. (: and hope everything goes well for him. he should know what i mean. GOOD LUCK TIM!! and dont brood over it so much ya? hees.
i spent over 60 bucks for presents for 17 students. )): broke right now. but the kids seems happy. (:
aihs. heard more and more stories. thought it would distract me more. but its like rubbing me off. making me depressed too. lols. but that wont do!! i must get over it! i can do it! hehe!
bring me smile.10:54 PM
Monday, September 28, 2009
my decision has been made. decided to just let it go. i was lucky that i was not fallen that deep in that pit. was glad that i still could pull myself out before i get deeper. *breathes out* tells myself that i am going to make it. its going to be fine. i had been alone for years. and i am still alive and kicking. so be grateful that i am still alive. (: whatever it is, i am not going to have one-sided love anymore. sick of it. ): and i am not going to be bother by it.
trying to find friends to worry about. haas. apparently there are quite a few. gotta pray for few of them. hope that the one in camp, could feel much better. dont brood over being outcast in there. haas. =P and the one having family matter, dont emo so much. alrights? last, the one having relationship prob, hope that she would reply u asap. ((: im here praying for u guys.
had been feeling weird. last talk to her. was like feeling shes fed up with something. but whatever it is. shes not going to talk, im not going to ask.
memories filled. be it good or bad. they are still your precious memories.
bring me smile.8:32 PM
skyward
You come to love not by finding the perfect person but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
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simple minded. sensitive. blur. a happy person now. bites people. =P Fav. Quote. sMiLe! :)) last but not least. remember 15 July.
simple minded.